Showing posts with label nostalgia. Show all posts
Showing posts with label nostalgia. Show all posts

Monday, June 14, 2010

Baby Mine

I was at a birthday party this weekend and caught a little infection from my friend's baby. Baby Fever, to be exact. It is highly contagious, especially for people who have mouthy, independent, soon-to-be school aged kids. I Heart Faces is also running a baby theme this week, so I found myself wistfully flipping through the archives of The Heathen Family iPhoto albums.


I would have posted a photo of the infectious newborn in question, but I was too busy trying not to weep in public to think about training my camera on his little face.


Go check out the rest of the baby photos, but don't blame me if your uterus starts quivering.


Thursday, January 7, 2010

A Shaky Start and a Strong Finish

I rang in the new millennium at a monumentally lame party thrown by friends of my roommate/boyfriend/mouth-breathing loser.  They were nice enough people, but they weren't people I'd call my friends. For fun they had their very own War of 1812 regiment. On weekends this crowd pretended to kill each other whilst wearing realistic costumes and sleeping in vintage tents on the wet ground. Like I said, nice people, but I like to keep my costume wearing confined to the play acting/ Halloween party milieu.

Anywho, the whole ushering in of the 2000s was a bit underwhelming. None of the computers failed. Money was in my checking account the next day and a meteor did not collide with the earth to put me out of my lingering 90s misery. The disappointment I felt as the ball dropped us into a new century shook me into reevaluating my life and where I wanted it to go.  I looked at my drunk mouth-breather and thought, "Nope. Not the direction I'm looking for." 

By June I made it clear to my boyfriend that I would be leaving Toledo (without him) and he should conduct himself accordingly. I resigned from my job and accepted my aunt's offer of shelter in Dayton.

I was 23. Sigh.

As I was unemployed and virtually without responsibility for a few weeks, I spent some time taking up space at a Borders bookstore.  One afternoon, a well-known local psychic was giving readings in the cafe. A dramatic shift in one's life tends to open the flood gates to the contemplation of fate and what-will-become-of-me, so I plunked down $5 to buy a glimpse into my future. 

I am not a believer in God, or true love or unalterable fate, but ESP and telepathy and all that super-natural hogwash fascinates me.  I love it. I have a set of tarot cards in my bedside drawer. Now you know.

In short, the psychic predicted that children would be very important in my life and that I would have some soon.  Ha! With what sperm donor, kind lady? The man I was to marry would turn up shortly, but there would be some confusion for me.  Apparently, two men were to come into my life at about the same time and I would have to choose.  The psychic assured me that the right choice was going to be obvious.  Then she said some eerily accurate stuff about my dead grandmother and great-grandmothers and freaked me out enough to think she might be onto something with this husband business.

In July, I got a job at a different bookstore (the venerable, no longer independent Books & Co.) and swiftly began dating the staff Casanova (super nerdy bookstore version).  It was fun, but awkward. Our conversations seem to sputter to halt when we weren't making out.  No one, including myself, thought it would develop into anything serious because it was sort of a rite of passage for new girls to take their turn with this guy. 

In August, Casanova left town to visit friends and I felt weird about it.  No other way to put it.  That's when I met Aaron.  He was sloppy and tired and sad and I knew immediately that I should stay away from him.  Yet, he drew me to him.  During our first conversation he asked me if I had a husband or boyfriend or illegitimate children. I reluctantly agreed to go out with him, right after he admitted to me that he was lonely because his fiance left him a month before their wedding. I know. A giant red-flag sprout from his head and I said yes anyway. The psychic made me do it. I had to figure out which guy was the obvious choice.  I sorta thought the date with Aaron was going to confirm my suspicion that Casanova was the best choice.  I was 6 weeks out from 24th birthday.

The rest is history.  I married Aaron on my birthday and never broke up with the other guy (the gossip took care of that for me).   Ahem.

This whole post was just a bloated introduction to my favorite photo, as requested by MrsW.  She thought for sure it would be a picture of Violet, but I'm nothing if not unpredictable (actually I'm totally predictable, usually).


Newlywed and looking forward to a great adventure.  We were naive and blissfully unaware of how tough and wonderful and shitty and spectacular the aughts would be... and our hair matched.  This photo is our beginning in a neat, tidy little package. It makes my heart flutter.

What is your favorite photo?  Preferably it is one taken by yourself or a member of your immediate family, but I suppose if an Ansel Adams still makes you weak despite all the gorgeous pictures of your loved ones, then whatever, I'm not here to judge.

Show me, with or without a lengthy exposition.  I love to see what you love. It makes me feel warm and fuzzy, like I do right after my second Pomegranate Martini.

Thursday, April 30, 2009

From the Desk of Kelly's Uterus:

Sometimes... I think about having another baby.

Actually, I think about having another baby every month on the 12th day of my cycle whether I want to think about it or not. The feeling is brief, but intense.

It drives me fucking crazy.

This month my hormones get me so drunk that I found myself staring at babies with a hungry look. I started thinking about soft baby skin and the tiny fingers and toes. I imagined myself nursing a perfect little baby and when I looked down at her, I saw Violet.

I always see Violet.

Her face morphs and changes and matures before my eyes and I realize that I am mourning her babyhood, again.















I was getting Violet out of the bath tub the other night and I was suddenly thrust into the moment. Time stood still for about ten seconds and I just stared at her face in utter astonishment. The universe went mute and I watched water drop from the end of her nose in slow motion. Just as I was getting a really good look at those dark lashes and tiny freckles, time sped up and she was a blur once more.



Sand through my fingers.

Saturday, February 21, 2009

Recently Uncovered: Part 2

*See Part 1 of this fascinating series, here.

In case you doubt just how far we've come in the last 20 years, here is another "treasure" that I found while cleaning out the Pink Room.

 
I was ahead of my time. I was on the internet before it was called "the internet."

 
30 "personal messages" FREE! Of course, we were the ONLY family in the universe on Prodigy, so it was easy to stay within our monthly e-mail limit.

 
Talk about blazin' fast dial-up service.  Woo! We would watch football games and check Prodigy to see how quickly they updated the score.  Sometimes it took as little as five minutes.

 
 I mean, it's practically compatible with everything!  If only I could find a floppy disk drive, we'd be in business. 
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I have no idea why I kept this, but now that it has been properly documented it will be taking the long walk to the landfill.  Of course, I might be persuaded to give it away if anyone out there has an interest in starting an Internet Antiquities Museum.  Any takers?

Friday, February 20, 2009

Recently Uncovered

Last weekend I made a big deal about our trip to IKEA and then... nothing.  I know you are all clinging to the edges of your seats waiting to see the $5 case of drinking glasses and the dozen multi-colored, plastic bag clips I bought.  I'm sorry, but I warned you I was on a mission.

The trip to IKEA was part of a larger and much more sinister plan to  organize my Pink Room. It is so-called, because it has pink carpet. The iridescent lillies on the wall would cause any child to have nightmares, so this room has always been a junk depository working room.

I resolve to clean this room twice a year and yet it always returns to this condition, because we don't have proper storage. The room is a hodgepodge of old dressers and mismatched desks, which take up more space than they save. Papers are stored in cardboard boxes. Tools are stored in shopping bags. It's a disgrace.  It is impossible to find anything.

This week I have made great progress. We bought tables and shelving on our trip to IKEA and I have begun to exert control over the rogue Pink Room.  Of course, whenever I undertake a job like this I get sucked into  nostalgia at some point.  Today I opened a giant plastic tub marked, "Kelly's High School Box."  The result made me and Violet very happy. She got some "new" toys and I was able to let go of some things that I once deemed too precious to throw away. 

 
  
Clearly, these items are not from high school.  I must have decided I couldn't be bothered to write, "Kelly's Box of Stuff that She Can't Figure Out What to Do With and Yet Can't Bring Herself to Throw Away."  Violet let out a gasp of joy when she saw the plastic charm necklace.  It was enough to make me abandon my planned speech about how to take care of special things.  I think she gets it.

Wednesday, February 11, 2009

Wardrobe Wednesday: The Uniform

Since it's introduction in the Spring of 2007, this lavender dress has been a staple of Violet's wardrobe.  My mother-in-law purchased it from the clearance rack at Baby Gap, on a whim. 

Violet was about 20 months old when she started wearing it. The dress is a 2T and it was a little big for her then.  Violet was smitten. It twirled. It had a ruffle and puffy sleeves.

Fast forward 2 years and she is still comfortably wearing the dress. It is scandalously short, but the bodice fits like a glove. When she plucks it out of the laundry basket, I only insist that she apply layers according to the weather. I don't want to think about the grief Violet will suffer when she finally outgrows this dress. I'm hoping it just disintegrates in her hands and falls in a lovely pile of purple dust at her feet.  We'll spread the ashes over our favorite playground.

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