Showing posts with label belief and atheism. Show all posts
Showing posts with label belief and atheism. Show all posts

Thursday, October 16, 2008

Heathen Religious Experience?

 
 Aaron and I kicked off my birthday weekend with a little cinematic enlightenment. I expected Religulous to be funny and I expected it to make me feel anxious as Bill Maher grilled the faithful about their faith, but I did not expect to be left speechless.  Most of the movie is standard Maher schtick, until the end when he stands on an Israeli hillside and predicts that we will destroy the earth with our religious fervor. No, ha ha. No, oh I'm exaggerating. Just Armageddon. Maher nailed something that hadn't occurred to me before. He posed the question (paraphrased), "How can a person who believes in End Times be trusted to care for our world, our planet?"  If something better is waiting for you on the other side, why bother cleaning up the mess here on earth? He asked an ex-jew for jesus dude, "Why don't you kill yourself?" The response (after a long pause) was "I still have a mission...".  This is particularly frightening when you consider the evangelical beliefs of the Boy King George, or how about when they asked the Republican candidates to raise their hand if they DID NOT believe in evolution. Are Conservative Christians in our government just killing time until Jesus comes down and tells them they can go home and play?
I have been a doubter for most of my life. I think I tried to talk to God about my sick Grammy once in the 2nd Grade and he never answered, so I gave up. I have always been a little sheepish about my disbelief. I wondered if I was missing something, or if I had tried hard enough to "get it". No shaft of light ever decsended from the heavens. No angel came to the foot of my bed. I tried to read the bible and fell asleep.  I made a half-hearted attempt to find some alternative pagan faith to follow. The reading was more interesting, but I still didn't believe any of it. My husband has always made it very clear that he is an atheist. The word atheist scared me. I still don't call myself that, neither does Bill Maher. Atheists are just as certain about their beliefs as Christians and Muslims are. Certainty is the dangerous part of religion. I am not certain of anything. I believe in doubt. I was enboldened by this film to be more honest about my lack of faith. It made me want to put a sign in my yard that says, "There (probably) Is No God!"

Saturday, February 2, 2008

She married an atheist

As an atheist I am constantly asked "So what do you believe?" The simple answer that I usually give is I don't believe in God. But this is the short answer. The whole of it is I believe in my wife and daughter. Life is hard, we hear it all the time, but so few times do we stop to think about what it means. It means that more often then not, life is not fun. The joyful things in life are not the norm. The things we laugh about, and the times we play, are the things worth living, but there not the things we live with the most.
So what do we do to make it through. If life is so proverbially hard why do it. Why do we not just stay in bed all day or O.D. on the mood enhancing drugs so many of us take. Because of our belief. Whether it be God, or some higher being, belief gets us through. As an atheist I do not have the omnipotent care giver to make it all O.K.. So the belief that is so necessary must be found else where. I find it in my family.
Everyday I wake to the sound of my wife and daughter running around downstairs with giggling lofting up the hall. This is the thing that gets me up everyday and pound through life. They make me smile and feel alive. I believe in them. I believe in everything they make me feel inside. It is my feeling of higher faith, that Christians talk about. It is my love, my faith, my belief in them. Who needs God, when you have your own two real life Knuffle Bunnies (a security blanket for those who don't know the world of Mo Williams). I cuddle them, sleep with them, and play with them.
Oh and I believe in them.

Aaron

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